Freedom, Aliveness, Ecstasy

Dear Future Lover,

There are a few things that you need to know about me if you want to give me my Hottest Sexual Movie. For me, intensity is the name of the game. This means that during sex, I enjoy when every part of my body becomes super sensitized, when there is so much heat and energy in my pussy, inside my chest, and on my nipples; when every touch, word, and gesture that you give me drops me deeper and deeper into my arousal and my desire for you; when there is so much uncontrollable energy moving in my body that even kissing me or licking me in a non-sexual area, like my wrist or ankle, feels like you are eating me out.

In order to get here, we have to start at the beginning…approximately 3-5 months back, when we first meet, perhaps at a get-together through mutual friends. We are both in an upbeat mood and your vibe is chill, lighthearted, and friendly. Maybe you’re a jokster. Towards the end of the night when you are driving me and a few of your friends back home, I say, to no one in particular, “It’s a bit chilly, huh.” You stop the car in the middle of the street, take out your jacket from the trunk, and hand it over to me. I am a bit surprised and turn red in the face because other people are there and I didn’t ask you to get me a jacket. But to be honest, I enjoy the special care and concern you show towards me. I also enjoy the fact that you don’t care who is there to witness this. For the next several weeks, before we even kiss, you surprise me with little actions that show me you care about the connection we have. Contrary to how everyone sees you (a laid back/ easy-going person), there is nothing chill or laid back about your attitude when it comes to me. When you say, “I will pick you at 6. I can’t wait,” you are outside at exactly 6pm, ready to spend time with me.

See, I have a Core Desire of feeling cared for on an emotional level, regardless of how that makes my lover appear to other people, so when you stop the car to get out a jacket for me in front of your friends, you touched on this Core Desire. I also have a Core Desire of feeling special, so when you behave different with me, as you did when you became attentive towards only me in the car, I felt special because I’m the only one you are attentive towards. Another Core Desire I have is to feel safe, so when your words, actions, and feelings all align, as it did when you picked me up at 6pm, I felt safe, like I could trust you.

Consistently, and enthusiastically, touching on these 3 Core Desires over a period of time is what will open up my heart to you. And since my heart has a direct, one-way connection to my pussy, consistently touching on these desires is what will make my pussy melt for you, forever.

Please note: I mention a one way connection from my heart to my pussy. There is zero connection from my pussy to my heart, so attempting to do all kinds of tricks on her, or attempting to do any of the things I mention below, before opening up my heart, will not give me my Hottest Sexual Movie. Also note that the examples I mention above are only examples; there are many ways for me to feel that your words, actions, and feelings all align, there are many ways for me to feel that I am cared for on an emotional level regardless of how that makes you appear to other people, etc.

Now, once my heart is open for you, meaning I feel intense heat inside my chest and tingling sensations on my nipples and my pussy every time I see you, hear you, or even think about you, I am ready to dive into bliss with you.

So far, nothing in our conversations has ever implied we will be having sex— nothing has been said, either overtly or subtly.  Our time together has not been lusty. It has been cute, sweet, and cordial. But secretly, there has been a passionate longing brewing inside me, one that grows every time you brush upon one of my Core Desires.

One day, I am at home working and I tell you, “You look so cute today, I could just eat you up.” Something inside you goes off and you decide today is the day. You notice that I am still busy and decide to let me finish up what I am doing before you take over the situation. You have a lot of patience and you know how to contain your erotic energy.

When I am done working, you tell me you want to cuddle on my bed. We sit on the bed and I kiss you on the cheek for the first time. My pussy and my heart melt and I accidently moan. You don’t even kiss me back. You quickly push me onto the bed and look deep into my eyes with a possessed, almost angry, look. “You’ve been wanting this, haven’t you?” I let out another moan, this time deeper and louder. I see you taking off your shoes and moan again in anticipation. At this point I’m so loud that the neighbors think we’re having sex, but we’ve yet to take off our clothes. Actually, we’ve hardly even touched (what they are hearing are the sounds of someone whose heart has been touched long before her body has been touched).

You quickly rip off all of our clothing except your briefs. And I just can’t take it anymore. Every inch of me needs you so bad. I watch you take off your briefs and my head falls back as I gasp for air. My mind, body, and soul are no longer under my control. They’re yours (I’m all yours). You forcefully bring my body closer to you and start talking dirty to me. I’m surprised at your strength and at the way you are talking to me, telling me you want to fuck me and give it to me so fucking bad. You look at me like I’ve done something wrong and I’m really gonna get what I deserve now. Seeing this animalistic side of you makes my pussy melt even more; I’m now shaking and gasping as the tip of your cock touches my pussy, as you gift me your precious cock in the most beautiful, tender way.

“You like when I give it to you like this, don’t you?” And I lose more of myself, hearing you narrate my thoughts. You try to remain dominant but it feels so good that you can barely make out complete sentences,

“so warm…”

” …and wet”

You begin to slow down, making sure to meet me deeper and deeper, and making sure

you watch my body

do things. It’s never done before

say things… it’s never said before

feel things it’s never felt before

Your hips are rocking back and forth,

back,

and forth

swayingupanddown, up

anddown

And I’m now in a trance of sayings and wordings and feelings and inches and inches of you

I open my eyes to see your body moving rhythmically; to see how you gently kiss the bottom of my feet and then put my toes inside your mouth because you want more of me. My pussy can’t help but to get more hot and more wet and more tight for you. We are totally attuned to each other. Totally in love and totally uninhibited in expressing our passion, desire, and love towards each other. Every one of your words, your gestures, and your caresses sends me deeper into ecstasy. There isn’t a single part of my body that isn’t alive and in bliss. We’re at the point where there is no word, no caress, no gesture, that will stop my heart and my pussy from taking you in and exploding with pleasure–not now, not today, not ever. You love that you hold this power. And I love that you’re gentle with it.

I also love moments that are impossible to capture because they are something that die at the same time and place they are born. Moments so massive, that remnants of it remain sprinkled inside my body and throughout my soul. Remnants that will remain with me for a lifetime. I’m singing about the time you make me both yours, and free

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